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I take a sip just a little bit more but it does nothing to end my pain What happened to drownding in your sorrows to  letting it wash away the problem Just a little bit more still nothing just pain your picture in my hand that girl in your arms just a little bit more mom tells me I'm over reacting dad says he told me boys were trouble that I should have listened to him that he was right just a little bit more Why isn't this working why do I still feel beytrale envy jealousy just a little bit more just one more sip just one last drink just one last try please just a little bit more to make the pain stop

arms bound chains clink heart breaks as you leave doors locked dark room scary noise loud boom hard hands rough touch cold silence no love mean glare hard stares no care hopless days endless nights gave up don't wanna fight no color just black no light just dark no hope tore apart empty girl no longer in this world gave up on life didn't wanna fight now here she dies

You tell me it's fine it's fun that we won't get caught dispite my doubts I breath in your words and you hold the lighter the more I smoke the harder it is to fight it I start to drift off more like lift off and as I exit the atmosphere i take hit after hit Passing all the stars I realize how gone I was The sun seem to drift away the closer I got to where I was going After one last hit I'm as the place I never planned to go Mars man!

When I was little my mama told me I looked exactly like her. I was happy when she did because Mama was the most beautiful woman in the whole world. But when I turned five Mama died of some strange sickness and left Papa and I alone. Then Papa got sick too. He was always sad and no matter what I tried Papa didn't smile. In fact when he saw me he cried more. So I started to avoid him, hopping he'd get better. But he didn't. I knew something bad was going to happen when he came it to my room, dragged me out of bed and put me in the car. We dorve to the lake we use to go to with Mama. But at two in the morning it wasn't as pretty. He stopped the

Broken bones and mangled limbs that's what turns you on The lightest part of your day is when I am at my darkest No matter how cruel you are or how evil you can be I still love you You do your best to break me with all these cuts and brusie the torture at night and your evil grins in the day I can't escape from the beauty of your darkness that look you give me scares me hurts me loves me Your my dark angel and I don't want to let you go

You look so pretty You look so perfect You look so fake You sit there with her smile and say your her But I'm not stupid I know your lying Where did you hide her What did you do to her Stop smiling Start talking You may have her smile her eyes her hair but not her I stare at you and feel no love I feel like she gone that she's missing so please give her back

When we fight I cry not out of saddness but out of frustration When I cry you leave not because you want to get away but becuase you don't wanna hurt me because don't wanna hit me why do we do this? why do we pretend that this anger isn't there? that we don't wanna kill each other when we do? lets stop this lets stop pretending and start fighting lets get angry lets get pissed lets get violent and throw our fists break the windows throw some chairs and when the police come pretend we're not here but when their gone we can start again this will go on until one of us is dead we don't complain this is fun or at least

People have told me that killing my self would be selfish That I'd make everyone I know cry That I'd hurt all the people I love But what about my pain I'm hurt I'm lost I'm alone But that doen't matter right? All the love they say they give is a lie I don't feel loved I feel hated I don't feel at home I feel lost I don't feel safe I feel scared But that doesn't matter right? Your feelings come first You say you love me But I can't deal with the pain anymore for once in my life I'm being selfish And that shouldn't matter